Good evening everyone,
Yes you’re not seeing things….I’m back. It feels strange and I woke up going, TODAY IS THE DAY. I am actually really excited to come back & I took my time out as ‘maternity leave from online’. My beautiful baby boy was born two weeks early, just a few days after I came offline. I had to give birth to my baby boy at the lowest point of my life, a time that was supposed to be such a happy time for me. Once he was in my arms, I forgot about everything that was going on around me and he was all that mattered to me. I cried with joy and happiness because I knew he was safe now.
As you all know I was subjected to horrific online abuse, slander & continuous harassment at 38 weeks pregnant. The abuse had the potential to the jeopardise the health of my unborn baby son. These people were behind anonymous accounts & who’s sole aim was to destroy me personally and professionally. Many people claimed they knew me personally in order to portray their lies and slander to be facts of my personal life. Some of these people on the thread were claiming to be work colleagues yet they more than likely have probably never flown with me as I’m only flying a few years. Lots of my colleagues would never know me on a personal level as I don’t generally converse with them regarding my private life. Not a single person on the thread that ‘claimed to know me’ could share information on when my baby boy arrived which was two months ago now.
I had already been going through a tough time personally before it all happened and I definitely think if I wasn’t pregnant at the time, it certainly wouldn’t have effected me how it did. Fast forward two months and I can hands down say that it taught me so much. I’m not going to come back and say ‘I’m a stronger me, I’m tougher and I can deal with anything’ because I’m not. I’m a total different person with a totally different outlook on life.
My space online is for positive people who enjoy my content, people who love what I do, people who want to watch me, those that enjoy my blogs, those that smile when they see I’ve a new story. I’ve come back for those people. I’ve come back because I’m doing this eight years now and I’m not going to let the minority win. I’ve never been more determined and set on achieving my goals. They say you have to go through the worst to get the best and I believe in that. My son was the best thing that happened and now my family is complete. Since he’s been born we have been enjoying every moment together. Lily is just loving being a big sister even though it took a few days to adjust once she realised he wasn’t a visitor 😉
I fear for both of my children growing up in this world we are all living in. One things for sure and one thing I will teach them is to be kind to others no matter what. Yes I said it #BeKind. My mother forever taught myself & my brother if I’ve nothing nice to say, say nothing at all. I am 31 years of age……but what if I was 21 years of age? Or what if I was 15 years of age? Or if I wasn’t as strong as I was? What if I didn’t have the support of my incredible family & friends. What if I thought enough was enough? You see when there is a screen between you and the other person, it is easy to forget that on the other side of that screen is another person, an actual real life human with real feelings. So if you ever have the urge to comment about someone negatively online, before you make a comment, ask yourself: would I say this to someone standing right in front of me? And I bet the answer would be no. So think before you speak and think before you type. People NEED to be held accountable for their actions and their nasty comments online. We are in 2020 and this is just not good enough. I can promise you that by the end of this year, you will be sick to the teeth of me hammering on about this. If you don’t like someone, unfollow. If someone pisses you off to the point of anger, unfollow. Nobody is making you watch that person. Life is so short and that is most definitely something 2020 has taught us all.
Social media can also be an incredible place and although what I went through was horrific, so much good has come out of it for me and one being the incredible supportive community I’ve built over the years. I know who I am. My supportive online community know who I am. My family know who I am. My friends know who I am and that is all that matters to me in this world. I know that karma will eventually come around to these people. For everyone that sent me a message, commented & emailed I want to thank you all for the support and love. I got thousands of messages before I disabled my account and I know I will never be able to get through all of them but I want to thank you from the bottom of my heart.
I am back for you.
If you do one thing for me today, WATCH THIS and yourself HOW ARE YOU LIVING? I promise you’ll thank me. It’s an unbelievable watch and so powerful.
Love Aoibhe xxx